14 March 2006

Round Twenty-Five...

...I'm more optimistic about this year. I'm not sure what happened with last year's birthday. I'm in the same place in terms of my career, my relationships, etc. My goals aren't the least bit clearer -- in fact, if anything I'm hurtling through life faster for lack of direction.

But I'm starting to get less concerned about it.

At some point this weekend, I transitioned from thinking about all the things I wanted. The job I wanted, the things I thought I deserved out of relationships with my family and friends, the way I spent my time... these were all things I spent time thinking about how I would change if I could. What I wanted to have in the future.

Then I started thinking about what I had now. It was like transitioning from looking through a window, at this life I thought I should have, to a mirror, seeing the life I did have. I can't think of any other way to describe it.

And I realized that for the most part, I like the life I have. And I'm missing it, agonizing over all the things that I think should be, this is making me lose sight of the things that actually are. Life is happening, and I haven't been watching.

I like being twenty-four.. it's going to be a good year.

5 comments:

Sideshow said...

Yup, don't spend your whole life looking forward or you'll miss out on today.

There is still time for this year to turn crappy. :-)

Atalanta said...

Bah. What could possibly happen in 363 days? :P

jeff said...

Best advice on life I ever received:

You'll get everything you have ever wanted. But it will not look at all like you imagined it.

Hannah said...

Ooh, happy belated birthday!

And while we're throwing around nice little quotations:

The important thing in life isn't having what you want; it's wanting what you have.

mrshife said...

Better late than never, but Happy Birthday from me. And sorry I don't have any inspirational quotes to add.